Wednesday, January 3, 2018

B.I.T.C.H.


yes, we are always taught to be honest and don't lie. a simple rule but very hard to practice. like the above dialogues from the movie mona lisa smile starring julia roberts as a free-thinking art professor teaches conservative 1950s Wellesley girls to question their traditional social roles (IMDb). watching this movie really motivates me to become a better woman, well at that time i'm still considering myself as teenager. but like i mentioned before, speaking the truth is much harder than you think.

me, for example has been labelled a BITCH for being too frank sometimes. a few people bravely tell me to the face but others, mostly called me BITCH behind my back which i didn't care much. the reason, they are allowed to badmouthing about me behind my back for i did the same. i admitted i talked things i disapproved about person which called mengumpat in Malay. but i usually told them to their face first, huhu..

in life, the golden rule is very simple: treat people the way you want to be treated. unfortunately, people usually forget about this. they rarely put themselves in others position. they failed in empathy. i know it's not easy to understand people for every people is unique in their own way. but, please at least made an effort and tried. sometimes telling the truth is the best even if it might hurt than shielding them with false lies and hope.

for example, i rather the doctor told me i have only three weeks to live because of an untreatable  illness than telling me i could fight it and cure could be found soon. at least the truth will let me prepared for death and maybe live my life to the fullest without any regrets than hoping for something impossible. well, that's all for my entry this time. again, i wrote just because i felt to. i'm not looking for followers or audiences. i wrote so that it could at least help me remember some of good and bad memories/episodes in my life.

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Saturday, December 9, 2017

M.A.D. WeeK ! ! !


this week or should i say last week was HELL for me! at first, i was so happy to finally found my one true love. but it all changed when i received an instruction from my high level superior to go to ipoh. the command was given around 1630 hrs. i took the 2215 hrs ETS (fast train) and arrived at destination around 0045 hrs. i got no place to stay, so i slept at the nearby mosque.

the next morning, i walked to UTC ipoh. i did what i need to do. i observed the workflow of several public and private services; LHDN, JIM, POS etc. since, i already flushed my phone down the toilet (story will be told in another entry), i have no meant of contacting my superior. the instruction was given online and i need to stay online as long as i could.

next, i must go to MYDIN MALL in meru. i didn't have enough cash with me. i begged several people to take me there and promised to pay them later. no one was willing to help. so i walked all the way to vocational school where the good and kindhearted lady called me an uber. by paying the uber driver (very nice and softspoken chinese guy), i had zero cash with me. my cards suffered the same fate as my phone. along the walk, my shoes are kaputt so i threw them away. i walked barefooted and the people that saw me must think i am one mad woman.

i finished my job at meru around 0100 hrs. one aunty with the heart of gold bought me food to eat. i at this moment, i just wanted to rest and i need to get online quick so that my superior could arrange my transportation back to putrajaya. but NO, i need to do one more operation, ooo made that FIVE operations ALONE before i could have my peace. the five places are HOTEL BAJET MERU RAYA, LOST WORLD OF TAMBUN, BANJAARAN, HAVEN and PERDANA LAKEVIEW. my friend booked me an uber from hotel bajet meru raya to lost world of tambun. again, the uber driver is very friendly and he agreed to stop by a police station for me to lodge a report.

long story short, around 0530 hrs (sunday, 03/12/2017) , i was locked in a mental health institution at kajang for being CRAZY/MAD! even my parents and family don't believe me when i said i'm sane. i just got out yesterday. thing i learned this day is TRUST NO ONE! just put faith in the one and only Almight, ALLAH SWT.

ps: positive outlook, i made new friends...