sonnet 129

i was born on january 29 . so it be translated to 129 in number form. without the year apparently. so, i googled the number since i was a little bit obsessed by numerology at that time and came upon this sonnet by william shakespeare. The sonnet consists of an unknown narrator having an internal mediation with himself about his sexuality; he fears it and harvests feelings of self-disgust for having such desires. "Omne animal post coitum triste est" is a Latin saying that is often quoted in association to sonnet 129. The phrase literally translates into "after sex, every animal is sad."(Wikipedia, 2017)

i first knew shakespeare when i was 11 years old. my house was equipped with a mini library, well not so mini since both of my parents and teachers and they really encouraged us (my siblings and i) to read by buying and providing us the right and suitable reading materials. so, we had access to various reading materials growing up. i was out of children's reading material so i try picking up shakespeare's book. to be fair they were in comic and simplified form, but i fall in love anyway. growing up, i read the original version and falling deeper in love.

honestly, i prefer the comedy and i dislike the tragedy. amongst my favourite are the taming of the shrew (kate reminds me of me, haha..), twelfth night, much ado about nothing and midsummer night dream. if i have to choose the tragedy, hamlet and macbeth. frankly speaking, i'm not a hardcore fan of shakepeare. by hardcore, i mean i couldn't quote shakespeare without googling. the only quote i remember is to be or not to be! fogive me, dear all shakespeare devotees if i misquoting. 

M E , M Y S E L F & I ! ! !

Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.~Dr Seuss~

continuation to M.A.D. WeeK...

remember my entry, M.A.D. Week?! here's the continuation. i was only out for two days before being sent back to rehabilitation on 12 december 2017. i was only out for good on 26 december 2017. even than i was on probation for one whole week. it was called home leave. my family could bring me back to rehab when they felt i should. on that one week probation, i wasn't allowed to post anything on social media thus the silence until a couple of days ago.

here, i was diagnosed as manic same in 2008. by to my own opinion, my manic episode now is less severe than my manic in 2008. but, what i HATE the most being manic this time is being hospitalized. to tell the truth, there were nothing much to do at the ward. luckily, my family brough me books and most important of all, the holy Quran.

the conversations are limited. there were around five people in the ward but their conditions doesn't allow good conversation. i hope the quality of psychiatric wards in malaysia will be upgraded! more activities should being introduced and i praised the presence of an occupational therapist. i don't know about the condition of other wards but the one in kajang are in dire need of improvement. still, i want to thank you all the staffs for doing a good job. honestly, a couple of you could use an personlity upgrade as well...  (~_^)