Important Dates 2021

 

*ps: i think most of you would guess by now what's actually these important dates that i keep posting each year...😉 if you still couldn't guess, well, let me give you a clue, it's a woman thing...

[BOOK] YOU ARE LOVED by MIZI WAHID

 

SEVEN THINGS TO REMEMBER WHEN YOU FEEL BROKEN, LEFT OUT, & ABANDONED

[ONE]

WE WERE CREATED ON PURPOSE

To first know our life’s purpose, we need to know our self-worth. Celebrate the traits that we like about ourselves and embrace our imperfections by working proactively in developing critical skills that we feel are needed the most for us to be useful in the future. So that we can serve our community and build something meaningful.

[TWO]

OUR MISTAKES DO NOT DEFINE US

We have all done stuff we should not have, but the goal is to stop sabotaging our future by not allowing it to be defined by our past. We have been hard on ourselves thinking that it would the most effective way to redeem ourselves. If it has not worked, then stop. Stop doing anything that has not worked anymore. Change our approach. Try being gentle with ourselves instead.

[THREE]

SOMEBODY OUT THERE LOVES US FOR WHO WE ARE

Because of the hurtful incidents that have happened in the past, we erect protective walls around us, and we become reluctant to open up so easily once again. But by doing this, we are also denying others the opportunity to get to know us, to accept us, and then to love us. We will not even let them near us, let alone learn about us, so how will they ever be given the chance to completely love us?

[FOUR]

FORGIVENESS BEGINS WITH THE SELF

Forgiveness begins with the self. If we do not cut ourselves loose from the wrongs of our own past, then no one else will. We have to shake off that guilt, because better days await us.

[FIVE]

WE ARE ENOUGH

We are special just the way we are. But also, be humble enough to admit that there will always be room for improvement. God loves growth and progress, and that is the best attitude we can have in this regard. Which is to always believe in our potential and strive for continuous self-improvement.

[SIX]

NEVER ATTACH OUR VALUE TO PEOPLE AND THINGS

We are most certainly going to get disappointed when we attach our value towards people, and we put too many expectations towards them. Because people will let us down, they will not be there when we need them, they will not thank us, and sometimes they may even turn against us after we have helped them. The problem is we are trying to get from people what only God can give. Our worth, our happiness, and our values do not come from another person, it will come from our Creator. So, turn our attention to Him.

[SEVEN]

TO KNOW “US” IS TO LOVE “US”, SO KNOW OURSELVES

We are more than just our job titles. Our positions describe what we do, professionally but that may not necessarily be the person we are. Ask questions that will uncover more traits about ourselves until we know what out strengths and weaknesses are. Do not limit ourselves to just a job title. 

😊 S M I L E 😊

Jim in Memory

RIP JIM 😿 (24/07/2020 - 08/09/2021)

Thank you for the sweetest short moments we had together.

❤️ I'm gonna miss your small paw tapping lightly my thigh when you want something.

❤️ I'm gonna miss you sitting on my lap whenever you could.

❤️ I'm gonna miss you blocking my television view to get my attention.

❤️ I'm going to miss your curiosity when you see me working on my laptop.

❤️ I'm gonna miss you searching for me when I'm not around.

❤️ I'm gonna miss you running to me excitedly when I called you.

I'm gonna miss so many things about you.

But I know Allah loves you more and it is for the best. He knows your struggle, and He takes you to a better place.

I will love you forever and always. May we meet again in Jannah, insyaAllah.

#FelineInfectiousPeritonitis
#LoveThyCatEndlessly
#ThankYouAllah

[SONG] YOASOBI "Probably" Official Music Video

melancholy???

i'm not really sure about my condition right now. i think this MCO is doing something to me, huhu... physically and mentally. mostly mentally... alhamdulillah, i've been sober (haha, this word can only be used by alcoholic, right), let me rephrase it.. i've been fine without any major manic or depressing episode since my last manic attack at end of 2017. i think that this is the longest time i'm okay. but, i'm still worried and afraid that something bad is going to happen, this current feeling that i have is like calm before the storm.

i want to tell it to someone but honestly i don't know to whom i should tell it. i think the only one who knew about this is none other than the One and Only, Allah for He is All Knowing. He knows everything. aside from Him, i don't really think others know my current feeling. i fell like i have to let it out because it is burdensome. since, i'm not sure how to express it verbally/vocally, i decided to write it down here. i knew that nobody really reads my blog and this somehow made me comfortable to write it here. most entry i wrote are mostly for my own eyes to read later. something that i documented for myself.

sometimes, i read my previous entries and i knew my condition when i wrote it ie whether i'm ok, maniac and depressed. i also write in an old style, actual, written and can be held journal/diary. that one is really for eyes only. just know that at this very moment, i just write whatever that came from my mind. i h ave a lot of things to get done. nope, actually i only need one thing to get done and it's my final thesis for my master. honestly, i feel like giving up. i just want to throw everything out the window!!! i just don't care about getting a master degree at all! end of story! but during this crucial time, Allah sends me motivation on the form of my friends. they encourage me to get going because they are struggling with it too. seeing and knowing that i'm not the only one struggling motivates me to start again.

but, i'm really in the procrastination zone. everytimes i start something, i end up leaving it and doing other wasting time things. it seemed like i'm jeopardizing/sabotaging myself. it's like throwing myself into doom! my current mood is unstable. sometimes i laughing amd the next second i'm crying. i've been having this mood swings for  a couple of weeks. like i mentioned above, i don't want to tell it to anybody for i really putting up my cheery and happy faces in front of them. there's a lot of thing i want to write, but suddenly i want to stop. i just wan to end this entry with this, i may be smiling of the outside, but i am tearing myself on the inside.

Updates! Updates! Updates!

 wow, it's been almost six months since my last entry. and my last entry was no entry at all since i just posted 'my important dates', hehe.. well, in the last six months nothing much had happened. the world is still facing the covid-19 pandemic. well, here a few recaps of what has been happening during the last five months;

COVID-19 VACCINE

receiving covid-19 vaccine. since i'm considered as a frontliner, my officemates and i were among the first group to receive the vaccine. our first dose was on 13 march and our second dose was 21 days later, on 3 april. we received the one developed by pfizer biontech. both of my parents are vaccinated as well, they also received pfizer.

MY BIRTHDAY

i celebrated my birthday with my mum, my aunts and cousins. it's not really a celebration. i just bought a cake and some pizzas. i received lots of well wishes as well. as for presents, i received a watch from my mum (bought it myself at zalora), a fruits basket from tisya, googlecast from rafiz and aisyah, telekung from yati and pizza, estee lauder makeup set from kak sya, fossil slingbag from abg ain's brood, free cake from starbucks and free ice cream from family mart. i'm 39 years  old this year, next year i'm enterung the 4 series mark! but, honestly i didn't feel that old, huhu.. still felt like in my early 30s.

GUNUNG LEDANG

i've been to gunung ledang twice. once with my colleagues and the other one with my cousin. we had a great time. i love going to gunung ledang, because sometimes just being in nature, you could unwind and forget your worries. gunung ledang is beautiful but sadly some people tends to mar its beauty by littering everywhere eventhough there are trash bins around. i just don't understand people with this bad attitude. they are used to litter without any sense of guilt.