introducing, yuki & heiji!!!

yuki & heiji

salam, introducing my bed partners, yuki and heiji. i bought yuki last year at metrojaya sale and i just received heiji last saturday from A as a birthday present. oh, yuki is the bear and heiji is the red angry bird. if you noticed my previous entry on my children name, yuki is the first prefix for female while heiji is the first prefix for male. and by the way, i just celebrated my 29th birthday yesterday. thank you all for wishing me happy birthday. kak sya and her family bought a cake for me. the previous week was very hectic week at the office. we have to work until night. i even asked for an extension for my proposal submission. i really didn't have the time to do it. alhamdulillah, puan mudiana approved my request. alhamdulillah, i also passed all papers for last semester and it's now offiicially thesis only to complete my degree...

[SONG] Exile ~ M&A

 

Zutto soba ni iru koto ga yasashisa dato shitara

Itsumo mayo wa zuni sono te wo hiku kara

Nanimo iwa zu daite ima o tomeraretara

Sore ijou shiawase ni dekiru hazusa

Kanashimi no namida nagasanaide

Futari de nori koete ...

Zutto sono hitomi sotto mitsumeru

Tatoe kimi ga se wo mukete mo ...

Kimi ga iru kara donna ni tsurakute mo

Shiawase to ieru !

Boku ga iru kara aruite ikou

Ame ni nuretemo

Boku ga kimi no kasa ni naru to chikau yo

Itsumademo shinjite ite hoshii

Yagate umarete kuru futari no atarashii inochi

Zettai ni mamotte miseru yo ...

Mienai mirai ni toma dou keredo

Futari de sasae atte ...

Zutto eien ga futari wo tsutsumu yo

Hanasanaide ... Hanarenaide ...

Futari no toki wa kimi rashii kimi de

Ite hoshii to negau

Dare ni mo misenai namida mo hora

Kimi ni miseru kara

Tada nani ga okite mo boku ga iru koto

Itsumademo wasurenaide ite ...

Kimi ga iru kara donna ni tsurakute mo

Shiawase to ieru !

Boku ga iru kara aruite ikou

Ame ni nurete mo

Boku ga kimi no kasa ni naru to chikau yo

Itsumademo shinjite ite hoshii

Itsumademo shinjite ite ...

okay, if i never mentioned it before, exile is my favourite japanese pop group, followed closely by kinki kids and arashi. i love almost every songs from exile and this is one of my favourite. i first knew exile from their song your eyes only which is one of the soundtrack for jdrama, shotgun marriage starring my favourite actor, yutaka takenouchi and favourite actress, ryoko hirosue!

see the part i bold and italic, the first chorus.. it's my ringtone and i can sing it without looking at the lyrics. i even googled its translation. basically it means, because you are here, all my hardships turned into happiness, because i'm here, i will shelter you from the rain by becoming your umbrella, believe it forever! sound a little weird since i'm making direct translation, huhu.. i'm no japanese expert! i just love it, yeah! oh, i've been reading a book that suggest its reader to list three things that made you happy for the day, usually unexpected things no matter how small it may seem. well, here are my three small things that make me happy these last few days.

1. someone mistook me for a uitm student, which make my age range from 18 - 23 yrs old! there's no post-grad student at uitm segamat. that's why i choose the age range, age for undergrads.
2. as usual, some comments there, some comments here, some likes here and some likes there would always make my day!
3. some stranger return my smile! seriously, when i smile at someone i don't know just for the sake of friendliness, my spirit is lifted when they smile back! oh.. oh.. oh.. you guys should check this book as well, missed connections. it's based on real events at missed connections website.

Happy Chinese New Year

Happy chinese new year to all my chinese friends! This year is the year of the water dragon and may it brings luck, joy and prosperity to us all! I'm trying to remember all 12 chinese zodiac accordingly.

1. Rat

2. Ox

3. Tiger

4. Rabbit

5. Dragon

6. Snake

7. Horse

8. Sheep

9. Monkey

10. Rooster

11. Dog

12. Pig

And I was born in the year of Water Dog. It us said that dogs are honest, loual, straightforward, intelligent, attractive , open minded and idealist. But they can also be lazy, cynical, cold, judgemental, pessimist, worrier, stubborn and quarrelsome.

frustrated

salam,

i'm a little bit dissapointed because i couldn't get my book voucher today. they said the voucher just arrived and didn't sorted it yet. so, i could only get it tomorrow. actually i planned on going back to 'kampung' today but my parents said it will be better if we get back tomorrow. so, i will get my voucher tomorrow! i still went to kinokuniya, voucherless and bought a few books. bought the cheap one, hehe.. after kinokuniya, i went to national library. i think the last time i went there was about 10 years ago. and as i re-register, i'm amazed they still have my details. so, i borrowed a few books and went straight home.

at home, i had some 'bones-marathon!' argh, love the couples in them! booth and bones, angela and hodgins even sweet and daisy! in the episodes i watched, bones and booth are expecting a daughter while angela and hodgins already had a son, michael. if you are a fan of bones, you know what i'm talking about. yesterday, i'm not in a good mood actually. suddenly, i felt that i really want to give up on love entirely. not family love or friendly love or even spiritual love, love to Allah and Rasulullah. it's the love between men and women that i want to give up for! i felt that i'm destined to stay single and marriageless for the rest of my life and i am even prepared to adopt since i love kids! it may sound a litte overboard but that how i felt really!

ps: well, if that really is my destiny, i accept it. if it's written on 'luh-mahfuz', i will be strong and succumb to it. yup, sound like someone who's giving up, rite? i'm not giving up just merely embracing the reality and the truth...

another heavenly day at the office

quite a rare view during working hours

if you have followed my blog, you would have read the entry about the 'blackout event' at my office. well, today the same thing happened. the only difference is, our cars were save from the fire extinguisher dust. as usual, i became the telephone operator. oh, i have already applied leaved for this chinese new year. my leaves is on the 19th and 20th january. i plan to go back with my parent's car and then come back here by train. i've already asked my dad to buy the train ticket from segamat to kl sentral next monday. i prefer trains to busses eventhough busses are faster. maybe because of security issue, huhu.. okay, that's all for now. until later..

ps: currrently watching NCIS:LA and waiting for Criminal Minds next!

something to ponder! ~_^

fairytales in music

taaadaaa! finally, i've been to a real live concerto and i managed to steal a shot before being told not to, hehe.. eventhough this musical is really for children but it still amusing. the conductor is dress as a clown and known as the clownductor, melvin tix. he's from norway. i have no knowledge whatever regarding conducting but i think he did a very good job. he's not only conducting, he sang, he juggled and he played instruments. oh, he's perfoming with the malaysian philharmonic orchestra (MPO). they concert last only one hour. knowing me, i couldn't kept my big mouth shut even during the concert, i got 'shushed' by the woman in front of me! me and A plan to got to the romantic hollywood musical after this.

before the concert, we had lunch at umai-ya, a japanese restaurant and it was delicious. and after the concert, we went to music star karaoke at giant seri kembangan. after singing our hearts out, we did some shopping at giant. eventhough, i promised myself i wouldn't buy a new cloth since my cupboards are full of them, i still bought this cute and sweet pink cheongsam! huhu, plan to wear it during next musical since the dress code is smart casual..  this 19th january, i can get my 1 malaysia book voucher worth RM200 at oum! hurray, can buy more books but only books regarding to my study. if i didn;t have to work this weekend, i planned to go back to 'kampung.' hopefully, i didn't have to work. okay, that's all for now. until later!

ps: have you ever heard the song Terindah by Anuar Zain? i'm currently hooked on it! ;)

final poject a.k.a thesis..

salam,

finally i'm in my final semester (hopefully, since the result from last sem hasn't come out yet!). i have chosen my topic and that would be 'communication in design.' i have to research on the importance of communication in a design team. i have to send a proper proposal to my supervisor before this 1st february, so i still got time. i already asked my brother whether  i could access UPM library using his id and he said yes! wargh, it has been a lon time since i'm doing a proper research in a real library, not a virtual one. and i'm actually quite excited, hehe..

tomorrow or actually today since it's already 12am, i'm going to watch musical concert with A at klcc. oh, yesterday  i went to peot a.k.a fairuz's wedding. i 'hitch' a ride with ateng since A couldn't make it to the wedding. her aunt passed away. we met aesah on at our usual meeting point, R&R seremban.  we get a litle bit lost, haha.. there's no sign indicating 'fairuz's wedding' but there are a lot of other's wedding. alhamdulillah, we finally arrived at the right wedding. both 'pengantin' are so 'sempoi.' how to describe? they are different from the usual ones. they walked with normal pace (not slow like it ought to be) and during 'sanding', they just talked with each other. nice!

ps: i'm on top of the world, looking down on creation and the only explanation i can find, is the love that i've found ever since you've been around and your love put me at the top of the world! ~ 'wajib' oldies karaoke song..

my new nephew, syariq!

syariq zain bin samad majid zain

presenting my new nephew, syariq zain bin samad majid zain. borned on 8th january 2012 on 4.45am, weight 2.78kg. his name mean bright or radiant. he's the fourth child to my sister kak ala and her husband, abg samad. syariq has two older sisters, safia and syaira and one older brother shafi. he has 10 cousins. let me list all my nephews and nieces according to their birthdays.

1. Muhammad Syahmi Haziq bin Mohd Nizar

    (26 March 1998)

2. Muhammad Syahmi Hazim bin Mohd Nizar

    (24 July 2000)

3. Nasrin Yasmin binti Hasnolizar

    (8 August 2000)

4. Nabilah Nurfarhanah binti Mohd Nizar

    (15 August 2002)

5. Izz Amirul bin Azizan

    (27 November 2002)

6. Izz Areef bin Azizan

   (4 March 2004)

7. Safia Zain binti Samad Majid Zain

    (9 September 2004)

8. Danish Irfan bin Hasnolizar

   (7 February 2006)

9. Muhammad Syahmi Hazwan bin Mohd Nizar

   (23 October 2006)

10. Syaira Zain binti Samad Majid Zain

      (1 June 2007)

11. Nabilah Nurfarisah binti Mohd Nizar

     (3 August 2007)

12. Shafi Zain bin Samad Majid Zain

      (11 September 2009)

13. Danish Alif Adam bin Mohamed Dahan

      (13 May 2011)

14. Syariq Zain bin Samad Majid Zain

      (8 January 2012)



so, i have (for the moment) 9 nephews and 5 nieces! wheww, what a bunch! and i love every single one of them eventhough i do sometimes raised my voice to them, hehe...

ps: really want children of my own, huhu..

my diet!

see these beautiful salads?! they are now my new diet, i wish! hehe, no way i'm just going to eat just these! my sister received it as a gift from polytechnic students. they grew them themselves. my sister asked me to eat them before it withered. she even bought a few dressings. so, from today i will eat these lovely, fresh salads until all of them are finished.

i worked this weekend. actually my turn is next week. since i want to go to another friend's wedding, i changed it with one of my friend. instead of working next week, i'm working this week. today, after work, i went to oum to register, hopefully for the last time. alhamdulillah, i have found a supervisor for my final project, kudo to nana for giving me pn mudiana's number.

after that, i went back home to change clothes. i planned to go to klcc to pick up musical tickets i bought. me and A, we want to try new things. after 'semerah padi,' we want to try some musical. so, i browsed through 'dewan filharmonik petronas' website and chose this musical. i hope it will be fun! unfortunately the ticket office is closed. so, i went to my favourite spot at klcc, KINOKUNIYA. oh, and i already bought a ticket to 5.20pm 'the awakening' show. i recommend you to watch this movie. it may be slow at the beginning but as the strory moves on, it will become better and better.

ps: sometimes, i felt happy only for the simplest thing. they might be meaningless to others, but they surely are meaningful to me. like the saying, 'someone's trash might be other's treasure!' *smile*

don't be a man man seeker

salam.. wow, this is my 100th entry and i will comment upon this article i read online at iluvislam.com.  actually i noticed this from my facebook wall and i find that it very interesting! if you click the link, you could read the full article and the article is in malay. if you understand malay than you can understand the article. but if not, do what i always do when i came upon any articles in foreign language that i don't undesrstand by using the google translator. yes, i know that sometimes the translations are not 100% correct but you still could grab the overall concept.

as you can see from the picture above, there's a 'perigi' which is a well that is chasing a 'timba' which is a bucket or pail, and the dialogue in the well's bubble simply means, 'paaiiilll... i love you! muaahh!' and as for the pail, the meaning is the same, hehe.. in the old days, we didn't have the luxury of modern piping, hence the well. usually it's the pail that is being brought to the well not the other way around. no one would bring the well to the pail because it's simply impossible and if it could be done, it's impractical! so, the article argues that in truth, there's no such thing as pail/bucket seeking well in the first place!

pail/bucket and well are two non-living items. they couldn't move by themselves. the pail is brought to the well because there's a will that needs/wants water by a person. so, the will of the person actually brought the two items together. and we are very familiar with the saying, 'when there is a will, there will always be a way!' when a person either male or female loves another, he or she will have the right to make the first move either by proposing or expressing feelings. i think, in earlier days the scenario of women seeking men is viewed as inappropriate to both the eastern and western cultures.

in these modern days, people are coming to accept the fact of woman making the first move. actually, this method is acccepted long ago when Saidatina Khadijah(ra) made the move to propose to Prophet Muhammad (saw) by using a middle person. in Islam, it is fine for the woman to express her need to marry a man as long as it is done according to syara'.

okay, now it's the time for my personal view about this topic. i have nothing against women making the first move it as long as the women don't seem so desperate, not overdoing it and know when to stop. for me knowing to stop is one of the important. you don't want to be labelled as a stalker. by agreeing to it, doesn't mean that i can be one (making the first move). it's easier said and done. when i really do have feeling for a guy, i couldn't express my feeling to him. here's an example.. i can 'shamelessly' ask my male friends (no special feeling) to marry me because i have no intention of marrying him, hehe.. i was just joking around. i am known for my rarely serious attitude amongst my family and friends. so, the other party will never take me serisously. so, if i do have the courage to ask the man that i really like, he will mostly thougt that i was joking! huhu, poor me.. really need to take things more seriously!!!

the next thing is, most of the guys i like, (wow, it sounds like i've got many!!! in reality i only have a few. crush, maybe a lot! but more than crush is like less than 5 in my 29 years of living!) are within my friend's circle, usually closed friends and i don't have many guys closed friends. there will be a few possible outcomes if i choose to express my feeling to the one i like:

1. he accepted me and we live happily ever after till death do us apart
2. he rejected me and we continue our friendship as before
3. he rejected me and cease friendship because the awkwardness and we both move on our seperate ways
4. etc.. etc.. etc..

so, i could only think the three possible outcomes. if (1) and (2), i will not regret me making the first move but if (3) then i will regret it my whole life because i lost a precious friendships. so, what would YOU do in this situation. some books or magazines adviced us, the woman to make the first move but at the same time be subtle so that the man will think that he is the one making the first move. eventhough they give a lot of suggestions, still i didn't have the courage to do or maybe i have did try a few but it didn't work! so that's all for my 100th entry. hope you like it and perhaps relate to it!

i wish i could do this NOW! oh, i could HERE!
'dear mr 'i hope u know u r', will you do me the honor of becoming my husband?'

something sweet..

best day at work, yet!

salam.. today is the best day ever at work for rhis year yet! wanna know the reason? ok, let me you the reason. i was working as usual, entering datas for passport application when suddenly my computer 'hang.' it's not unsual that my system went 'berserk' but it would be okay in a few minutes. if it is not okay within that few minutes, it means that our server is down or we just usually call it 'off-line.'

so, i told the poor girl i was entertaining that time that we are having problem with our server. it usually will not take long. the longest 'off-line' we ever had at our putrajaya office is 1 hour to 2 hours. i told the girl to just wait at my counter. but, another unfortunate event (to the public at least, but a very 'fortunate' event to us) occured. BLACKOUT! again, blackouts or power trips are quite usual at our office since we always overuse the supply. then, one of my senior officer made an announcement that indicates this blackout is not the usual one.

the announcement is,'to staffs who parked their cars near the power supply generator, please remove them because there's an explosion with the circuits!' one of the car is mine since it's my usual spot, near the generator. we all rushed to the basement only to see our cars is covered with dust. no, not dust! but dry powder from the fire extinguisher. we moved our cars and went back to the office. we made the announcement regarding out 'blackout problem.' we also mentioned that we didn't know when it will be fixed. we advised the public to go back first and try calling us in the afternoon to ask whether the problem is fixed or not.

when the people were gone, most of our staffs also gone missing. majority of them went to wash their cars. i stayed and read the book that i brought along. ah, i have this habit of bringing reading materials to the office since i usually arrived early. i read while waiting for the office to operate on 7.30am. and i think today, i changed my profession from immigration officer to telephonist momentarily. the phone kept ringing and i kept answerinng. after lunch, my boss told me that the maintenance told her, they couldn't fix the problem by today and the earliest time that they could fix it is tomorrow. so, again we told public that we are done for the day, around 2pm. sharp 4.30pm, i went back and brought my car to the car wash.

view on my windshield after the 'incident'

what my 7 months old nephew 'google' on the net

ps: again, today my heart is blooming with happiness, direct translation from malay phrase, 'hatiku berbunga keriangan' just because...  just because a few words... ;)

i don't know what it is, but...

salam.. i am currently in a situation that quite foreign or alien to me, hehe.. now, i have this something that always make me smile no matter when or where.. everytime i thought about it, a smile will appear on my face and i am quite afraid that people might see that smile and think i'm crazy for smiling for no apparent reason. it will be worse, if i'm smiling in a wrong situation. for example when a person tells a sad story and while listening to that person story, my mind wanders to that something that made me smile. and the person who is telling the sad story might take my smile for a wrong reason. know what i mean? i couldn't help it...

i'm hoping that this something that makes me smile will blossom into something that will make my smile more meaningful. at the moment, i'm just happy to see a few things here, a few things there, some pictures here, some comments there, some 'like' here, some shared private jokes there and so on and so on. if this something is real and if this something is what Allah wills for me, i'm really grateful and it will be on the right path following the right method. but if it's not, Allah will always Knows what is best! Like firman Allah in Surah Al-Baqarah (216) which means; 'Fighting has been enjoined upon you while it is hateful to you. But perhaps you hate a thing and it is good for you, and perhaps you love a thing and it is bad for you. And Allah Knows, while you know not.'

ps: hehehe.. :D

important dates 2011

new year's eve

okay, i know it's not new year's eve anymore. but i'm talking about the movie new year's eve. we watched it at tgv seremban 2 after yuyut and ismas' wedding. we had a double date today, hehe.. it' me and A alongside with rafiz and ateng. okay, let's talk about the wedding first. it was quite grand. they even invited 'yang dipertuan besar negeri sembilan,' which me the event was filled with protocol. the bride and groom are wearing white and look as beatiful, stunninng and handsome as bride and groom should be. the number of our friends from stj is quite a lot since both couple are stjrians. the number may be the same as the number of people attending aesah's wedding yesterday. as usual, we ate, we gossiped and we took pictures (not me, since i'vbe already mentioned my weakness regarding photographing, hehe)..

after the wedding, some of us (which me and A tagged along) went to have drinks, the non-alcholic one, ok, to further continuing our gossips and news changing. after that, we (see double date) rushed to seremban to watch new year's eve. it was originally ateng's idea and i'm glad he suggested it because the story was lovely and touching! and let me tell you aanother secret about me. pardon me if i've mentioned this before.. i could cry easily while watching sad scenes from dramas of movies IF i know no one would see my tears, haha.. if people coul see it, i would just hold my tears and will it not to fall. since the cinema hall is usually dark, i just cry eventhough i'm watching it with friends. so, during the movie i cried at robert de niro scene with hillary swank. father and daughter relationship or any parents and children relationship usually caused me to shed a tear or two. i think maybe i relate it to my own relationship with my parents eventhough mine is nothing theaterical or dramatic as in the movies or dramas.

when we finished watching the movie, we went to oza's parents' in law satay stall at ampang jaya. bonda or maybe i should call him with his proper name, azhari and oza were already waiting for us. we talked about everything while eating the very delicious satays (to those who are a fan of satay, you guys sholud go to satay zaini at amapang jaya, there were truly delicious, much better than haji samuri). we finished about 12.30am and went seperate way back home.

ps: here's a famous quote by auric goldfinger, a fictional character from james bond movies. he said that 'once is happenstance, twice is coincidence, third time is enemy's action!' but in my case, i would love to requote him by saying 'once is happenstance, twice is coincidence, thrice a charm!' if you guys wondering what i'm talking about, let me just drop a few hints. clothes, colors, same, green, brown and purple!!! these hints are making me smiling non stop again like a lovesick teenager, eventhough i know 'teen age' is way past my time since i'me nearing the big three!!!

goodbye 2011, welcome 2012!



wow, how fast time flew! it felt like yesterday, i'm welcoming 2011. so, just wanna wish happy new year to all of you people. hopefully, this year is much more better compared to last year. as ususal, my new year resolution remains the same since i wasn't able to fulfill them last year! today, i'm going to my friends' wedding in seremban. i think i have mentioned this before, both of them are stjrian. my secondary school sometimes know as Sekolah Temu Jodoh (School of Meeting Soulmate), and i think it's quite true. there are quite a number of couples from the same school.

yesterday was also another friend's wedding at ampang. after the wedding, A, rafiz and i went to pavillion. rafiz want to buy a new wallet, ateng want to watch alvin and the chipmunks 3 with his friend, me and A want to watch hell's gate (which we managed to drag rafiz a lot). the movie was quite dissapointing. i thought it had the same story line like constatine or drag me to hell! unfortunately, it's not! oh, i must remember that this month i could get free movie passes from gsc. it's my birthday month! i also could get 50% discount from king's confectionery! i'm turning 29, but i felt like 19, hehe... okay, that's all for now. again, happy new year!!!