Friday, December 31, 2010

[SONG] Butterfly - Mariah Carey


When you love someone so deeply
They become your life
It's easy to succumb to overwhelming fears inside
Blindly I imaged I could
Keep you under glass
Now I understand to hold you
I must open my hands
And watch you rise

[Chorus:]

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Fly abandonedly into the sun
If you should return to me
We truly were meant to be
So spread your wings and fly
Butterfly

I have learned that beauty
Has to flourish in the light
Wild horses run unbridled
Or their spirit dies
You have given me the courage
To be all that I can
And truly feel your heart will
Lead you back to me when you're
Ready to land

[Chorus]

I can't pretend these tears
Aren't overflowing steadily
I can't prevent this hurt from
Almost overtaking me
But I will stand and say goodbye
For you'll never be mine
Until you know the way it feels to fly

[Chorus]

So flutter through the sky
Butterfly
Spread your wings and fly
Butterfly

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

names i plan for my children...

here are the names i plan for my children and please take notes that i planned these names by myself. no discussion with my partner, boyfriend, future husband or whatsoever because i have none of those, hehe...



notice that all the girls' names got 'YUKI' in front of them and the boys' names got 'HEIJI'. the reason is influenced from reading manga and watching animes. i chose YUKI from the manga Young File of Kindaichi. the main girl character is MIYUKI NANASE, so i took only the word YUKI. and if you are interested, YUKI means happiness or snow. while the name, i took from the Detective Conan character, HEIJI HATTORI. and i don't know what HEIJI means, hehe...

Sunday, December 19, 2010

ideas..

please come to me, dear ideas... i need to finish my assignment before midnight, otherwise my carriage would change to pumpkins.. wait, that was cinderella, sorry. if i didn't submit it before midnight, i'll get 0 marks. so please, i need you... suddenly, i miss my mum. no relevant whatsoever to my due assignment. hmm...

Sunday, August 22, 2010

[SONG] KinKi Kids Forever (English Version)

There is no reason for you to be sad girl When there's so much to see in this world, oh baby And after rain always comes sunshine Don't be afraid, You're gonna be fine Cause when you're down And there's no one around No one who cares Then we will be right there Everybody sing with us, Kinki Kids forever We'll always be around, always stay together Everybody sing with us, Kinki Kids forever Come on sing it, Kinki Kids forever Na na na na..... Girl all you need is to believe in you Just make a wish and your dream will come true, oh yeah When times are tough and you've had enough Remember girl, don't give it up Cause when you're down And there's no one around No one who cares Then we will be right there Everybody sing with us, Kinki Kids forever We'll always be around, always stay together Everybody sing with us, Kinki Kids forever Come on sing it, Kinki Kids forever Na na na na..... Cause when you're down No one who cares Cause when you're down And there's no one around No one who cares Then we will be right there. Everybody sing with us, Kinki Kids forever We'll always be around, always stay together Na na na na... Everybody sing with us, Kinki Kids forever Everybody sing with us, Kinki Kids forever We'll always be around, always stay together Everybody sing with us, Kinki Kids forever Come on sing it, Kinki Kids forever

Monday, August 9, 2010

ramadhan is here again...

salam.. eventhough there's still no announcement from the Mohor Besar Raja2 and not looking at 'anak bulan' yet, everybody is assumming the start of the fasting month is this wednesday. so then, the terawikh will start tomorrow... my resolution for this ramadhan is i don't want to miss any terawikh unless it couldn't be helplah... even if, i can't go to any surau or mosque, i have to do it on my own at home... and another resolution is i want to recite Quran at least one page daily. no matter how busy i am, i will finde the time to do it. it's even better if i can finish the whole Quran in this ramadhan. well, these are my 'azam' and i'm hoping hard that i'll make it through... tomorrow got exam, final... english paper... i've a big secret this sem... a few ppl know it... what else?! erm, just wanna make it clear, i love my mom! hahaha... out of topic... that's all for now.... bubye! welcome RAMADHAN....

Friday, July 9, 2010

movies that i've seen recently...

wow, it's been such a long time (usual introduction line), hehe.. but, i felt like writing something today! i'm bored at work, it's lunch time okay! so, i have the right to do anything to pass my time. just finished mid term yesterday.. 2 papers; entrepereneurship (still find it quite difficult to spell it) & information, media and society! MCQ (Multiple Choice Question)... think it's easy eh?! think again.. it got only 25 quetions n u have to score at least 20 to pass! unsure answer more than 5! do the math! huhu... well, after each paper, went to see a movie! the first one is a thai horror movie: 9 temples death ghosts! as usual not so scary but full of unexpected scene. the 2nd movie is eclipse which was ok! i wish there were more fight scenes and less romance. everytime during the romance part, i would stare at the ceiling or the floor! could't stand to watch it. reading is different! i would reread it, but seeing it being translated into action, hoho.. sorry, not me. but there's one romace scene i like, not between bella and edward but between jasper and alice. i find it cute, hehe... what else? last week i sarawak due to work. that's all i can think of writing like now... until later...

Saturday, February 27, 2010

[SONG] Soba Ni Iru Ne ~ Aoyama Thelma ft SoulJa



[Aoyama Thelma]
Anata no koto (wata)shi wa ima demo omoitsudzukete iruyo
Ikura toki nagareteyukou to I’M BY YOUR SIDE BABY itsudemo
SO. donna ni hanarete iyou to
Kokoro no naka dewa itsudemo isshoni iru kedo samishiin dayo
SO BABY PLEASE tada HURRY BACK HOME

YOU KNOW DAT I LOVE YOU dakara koso shinpai shinak(u)te iindayo
BABY BOY atashi wa koko ni iruyo doko mo ikazu ni matteruyo
Donna ni tooku ni itemo kawaranaiyo kono kokoro
Iitai koto wakaru desho?

[SoulJa]
Anata no koto matteru yo
Nna koto yori omae no hou wa genki ka? chanto meshikutteru ka?
Chikusho, yappa ieneeya
Mata kondo okuruyo ore kara no LETTER

[Aoyama Thelma]
Sugisatta toki wa modosenai keredo chikaku ni itekureta kimi ga koishii no
Atashi nigeteta no
Dakedo anata to no kyori ga tooku naru hodo ni isogashi kumisete ita
Dakedo me wo tojiru toki nemurou tosuru toki nigekirena iyo anata no koto
Ikura toki nagareteyukou to I’M BY YOUR SIDE BABY itsudemo
Omoi dashite wa hitori naitetano

Anata no koto (wata)shi wa ima demo omoitsudzukete iruyo
SO. donna ni hanarete iyou to
YOU KNOW DAT I LOVE YOU dakara koso shinpai shinak(u)te iindayo
Kokoro no naka dewa itsudemo isshoni iru kedo samishiin dayo
SO BABY PLEASE tada HURRY BACK HOME


[SoulJa]
BABY BOY atashi wa koko ni iruyo doko mo ikazu ni matteruyo
Donna ni tooku ni itemo kawaranaiyo kono kokoro
Anata no koto matteru yo
Iitai koto wakaru desho?
Bukiyouna ore tooku ni iru kimi
Tsutaetai kimochi sonomama iezuni kimi wa icchimatta
Ima ja nokosareta kimi wa ALBUM no naka

[Aoyama Thelma]
ALBUM no naka osameta omoide no
Hibi yori nanigenai hitotoki ga ima ja koishii no
('SoulJa' kimi no nukumori)
AND NOW anata kara no denwa machi tsudzukete ita
Keitai nigirishime nagara nemuri ni tsuita
('SoulJa' dakishimete yaritai)
Atashi wa doko mo ikanaiyo koko ni iru keredo
Mitsume aitai anata no sono hitomi
BABY BOY atashi wa koko ni iruyo doko mo ikazu ni matteruyo
Ne~ wakaru desho? atashi matteruyo

Donna ni tooku ni itemo kawaranaiyo kono kokoro
YOU KNOW DAT I LOVE YOU dakara koso shinpai shinak(u)te iindayo
Iitai koto wakaru desho?

[SoulJa]
Anata no koto matteru yo
Ore wa doko mo ikanaiyo koko ni iru keredo sagashi tsudzukeru anata no kao
YOUR egao ima demo sawaresou datte omoi nagara
Te wo nobaseba kimi wa

[Aoyama Thelma]
Ikura toki nagareteyukou to I’M BY YOUR SIDE BABY itsudemo
Anata no koto (wata)shi wa ima demo omoitsudzukete iruyo
SO. donna ni hanarete iyou to
Anata no koto (wata)shi wa ima demo omoitsudzukete iruyo
Kokoro no naka dewa itsudemo isshoni iru kedo samishiin dayo
SO BABY PLEASE tada HURRY BACK HOME

Kokoro no naka dewa itsudemo isshoni iru kedo samishiin dayo
Ikura toki nagareteyukou to I’M BY YOUR SIDE BABY itsudemo
SO. donna ni hanarete iyou to
SO BABY PLEASE tada HURRY BACK HOME

Friday, February 26, 2010

ploop...



don't know what title to give. so, the first thing that came to my mind is 'ploop'! so, ploops it is. just finished watching liar game 2. interesting. i always like liar game since its first season. the series give me something to think about. learn lots of new things. i also learned about stockholm syndrome while watching knight rider and ghost whisperer. it's a syndrome, when the people that being kidnapped backing their captor, saying that they were nice and so on. they're being brainwashed by their captor. there are a lot of things i learned from watching television and reading books. sometimes the books are not even educational, hehe.. example, i learned some crime solving methods by reading detective conan and files of young kindaichi. so, it went without saying, i learned more from CSI and other tv series.

right now, i'm currently reading darren shan saga. i'm at book no 9. it's nice and i prefer the books than the movie. what else? i also wathced a japanese movie titled marriage according to blood types. interesting. do u know that japanese believe that blood type sometimes determined a person characteristics, just like the zodiac. let me see if i can google some info regarding the blood types. i've read it before and saved the info in my old pc. unfortunately, my pc was beyond saving. crashed all the way. huhu, so i lost a lots of data. my pictures, my document, my movies, songs, anime and lots more. sad but what to do.... wait while i googled the info regarding the blood type. by the way, i'm B+. found a great site, here... well, that's all for now. until later...

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

current..

current book : darren shan ~ hunters of the dusk
current jdorama : liar game 2
current manga : naruto, bloody monday season 2, detective conan, nodame cantabile reprise
current anime : samurai x on animax
current tv series : ghost whisperer (8tv), knight rider (tv9), supernatural (axn), chuck (axn)
current reality shows : amazing race (axn), so you think you can dance (axn)
current favourite books : rick riordan
current favourite comics : penyiasat remaja
current favourite drinks : nescafe
current favourite colour : green
current virtual boyfriend : kengo akechi from penyiasat remaja
current real life boyfried : none
current age : 27
current car : perodua viva 850cc (green)
current motto : live life!
current wish : money, lots of money

no idea...

ellop there! another update this week. the truth is i don't know what to write but still, i wanna write something. last monday while reading darren shan book, cirque du freak, i cried. hehe, i had to go to the toilet, so that nobody can see me crying. i cried at the part, when darrn said goodbye to his family, before he faked his own death. silly of me, right? i didn't know why i creied. maybe during that time, i'm imaginig myself saying goodbye to my family before my own death... i'm still reading the darren shan saga. currently at book 5...

i've got 3 assigments to do. 1 for oral english, 1 for human computer interaction n 1 for interactive media. but i've got to finish inteactive multimedia first 'coz the lecturer want it on T4. the other 2 tutors is much more lenient and want us to submit it during T5. i've got only 1 paper for mid-term, that's human computer interaction. my result for last sem is already out. B+ for statistics n B- for web publishing. wait for one more, communication theory. my cgpa is getting lower each sem. currently at 3 point something... huhu, hopefully will stand above 3 pointer. don't want 2 pointer.... that's all for now. until later...

Saturday, February 20, 2010

what's the time now?

help! i've been in a trance for quite a long time now! would u please tell me the year? haha, it's already 2010 dear! WAKE UP! see, that's why i haven't been writing anything. i was under a spell. the spell of sleepiness and witers block. even a blogger also suffers from writers block. eventhough, what we wrote was nothing compared to all those bestsellers. well let me rephrase it, what i wrote is nothing compared to all those bestsellers. a lot of things happened in my life. the obvious one is (for the people who can see me), i've became fat, very fat. got problems getting in old clothes. got to buy lots of new ones with the current size. so, honestly i dislike being fat. but, i also dislike exercising to not staying fat. bought a dance workout dvd, only done it twice. go for a jog in the evening after work. last for only one week. and my favourite past times doesn't help the situation either. u guess it! it's sleep. i slept most of the times. sometimes my wakr up time is less than my sleeping times. i think i have a sleeping disorder. perhaps, i should address my doctor again regarding this sleeping pattern of mine. one more important thing that i need to mention, i'm suffering from bipolar disorder. so, my doctor told me that i'm most likely have to take medication for my whole life. nice news eh?! erm, i've been taking lithium carbonate, olanzapine and seroquell. olanzapine is being changed to seroquell. one of the side effects of these medicines is weight gain. but i didn't blame all my weight gain to the medicines, mostly i blamed it all on my lazy lifestyle, hehe...

what else? erm, something stupid. i made up my mind to get married at the earliest when i'm 30 yrs old. think, i have gave up on love at the moment. hoping that perhaps, love will finally waltzing in my life when i am 30. other than that, i've read rick riordan books. it's great. the first book have been turned into a movir, percy jackson, the lightning thief. A invited me to watch the movie. find it good and bought all five books at once. bought it with my. my mum asking me about my financial state. i told her, i couldn't pay for my car installment because i've got to get a new phone. my previous phone is seriously 'sick.' so, my mum was confused when i still can buy books that totaled up to ca. RM175 and couldn't pay my car installment. history behind the car payments. the car was bought under my sister's name. during those time, she needed the car for a while. i agreed to use the car afterwards. so, i have to pay the monthly installment. but, knowing me my my 'thrifty' ways of spending, i didn't make the payment on time. my mother took over the monthly payment which is RM450. i have to pay only half of it, that's RM250. as for the road tax and insurance and all, my mother paid that for me. seriously, i don't know how to manage my money. my motto, got money, spend them! hate me is you must, but that's the truth. i don't have savings other than my tabung haji money. that's for haji of course. perhaps, one day i woke up and i changed into another person that can manage moneywell, although i doubt that. and one more thing, i think i have to make a loan from my sister if i want to make through to next payment. i'm broke as hell already.

back to the rick riordan books. i spent all my chinese new year holidays, finishing it. and it got me interested in knowing the greek mythology. my study is going on well eventhough my grade keep on slipping down and under, huhu... i still love reading comics. i still love dreaming about something i couldn't have. i hate my job, duh! doing the same thing all over again. i just doing it for the money and my mother and my medication as well. i think about killing myself at least once a day, which is quite normal for me. and i also think about the various ways i could kill myself. i think the easiest way is taking excessive amount of pills. wouldn't feel any pain, just drift to death. think again, not ready to die. not enough good deeds tohelp me in the afterlife. and suicide is definitely one of the ULTIMATE SIN. straight to hell, baby. do i believe in the afterlife? what kind of question is that? as a MUSLIM, i definitely believe in afterlife. all those times watching hollywood movies, defining their 'aferlife', doesn't change my thought at all. what else? i still want to learn japanese and sign language. i almost forgot my german. i still didn't know what to do with my life eventhough i'm 27 yrs old already. whine whine all along the way. i still love to read historical romance, once in a while, i read something informative such as self help books. that's all for my incoherent thoughts. until later! =)