thoughts for the day..

'did u even notice that i'm trying my best to get your attention?! until at some points, i feel like a fool. and it sure does made me seem desperate. but, i do realize that i'm just a wallflower, always there but still invisible. if it's meant to be like this forever, i succumb to my fate...'

ps: i hope this particular thoughts reach to the one. q(>_<)p *wishing hard, hehe..*

my dreams from 10 years ago..

i'm currently in the creative mood. okay, i admit.. i'm not very creative but still i have the right to have the 'mood' right, hehe.. because of that, i'm working on a 'whatever scrap book!' a scrap book that can contain anything from nothing to everything! while working on this scrap book, i read back my old diaries. hoho, i do have a few diaries but i didn't wrote in them every single day.just when i'm in the mood, just like i'm writing entry for this blog.

it's actually funny seeing the things that've been written. i only got two diaries at the moment. the first entry started in 2001, during my a-level years. i couldn't believe the things i wrote. and there some events that i've totally forgotten about it! it helps actually having a diary. so, i recommend you guys to have one. like i mentioned before, you don't have to write it every day. just write when you feel like it. for me, diary is different from blog. blog entries are to be seen and heard by everyone and anyone, but diaries are only to be seen and heard by chosen one. the one that you allow to read. normally, a diary is only to be read by the writer.

i went through this diary and i found the dreams i wrote 10 years ago. here there are:

• furthering my study to germany (achieved but not totally, see below)
• getting my 'diplom' and passed with flying colours (unachieved due to unavoided circumstances)
• get a job that interests me with good payment (honestly, still progressing)
• by my own place and car (place - not yet, car - done)
• get MBA and then PhD in psychology (put on hold while still strugling with first degree)
• learn to play piano/violin (hoho, the only musical instrument i could play is recorder!)
• learn to speak japanese and spanish fluently (argh, no time!<~excuses as always)
• can offer helps to those in need (always trying my best)
• work a lot with charity (joined few charity work but mada mada.. <~ see, i do know a little japanese!)
• become famous! (hey, i was young and stupid back then! hehe..)
• married to a man of my dream (here are some of my dream man back then! yutaka takenouchi, hayden christensen, matt damon, orlando bloom and keanu reeves.)

ps: currently hooked to a malay song called 'sesaat kau datang' by ramlah ram ft sleeq! 

a pleasant surprise!

yesterday i went to watch immortals with A. the movie was rated 18SG here in malaysia. when we were about to enter the cinema, the attendant that was checking our tickets requested for my id. at first, i thought he was joking. but, i later learned that he was serious when he kept our tickets on hold. embarassed, i showed him my id and he let us in. but after some thinking and receiving friends' feedback regarding the incident, i am flattered instead. to think that i could still pass as a minor, hehe...

this incident made me remember the time i was studying in germany. since, we asians are usually small and young lookin compared to the europeans, the people there always mistook us as children. one time, we want to apply 'bahncard', train card that get you discount, the person in charge asked us to bring our parents if and applied it with them. when we told him that we are already adults, he wouldn't believe us until we provided him with our passports. those were the days my friends!

and if you want my review on immortals, i would give in 5/10. the actors were great and so does the effects and surroundings. what made me gave only 5 was the storyline. since i knew a little about greek myth and legend (thanks to mr rick riordan), the movie drifted quite a lot from the original legend. the titans and gods are portrayed differently from the one that i was familiar with (again credit to mr riordan). but if you knew nothing or little about greek myths, the movie would favor just fine. before immortals, i did watch in time with A. i will rate it 7/10. the 3 marks was deducted because of logic. since, i'm quite a logical person (eventhough i do have great imagination), there are a lot of things that can be questioned. the next movie i want to see is puss in boots!

ps: so excited! reason - will go to singapore next week!!!

the dumbest thing!!!

the dumbest thing happened to me today! i thought today was saturday, so naturally it caused me a lot of troubles! first thing, i didn't go to work. how could this happen, you asked? okay, let me replayed what actually happened that made me think today is saturday. the day before is thursday right?! i did some work, that is my assignment. i work late until the morning around 4am. so it's friday already right. the thing that keep playing in my mind is that, it's okay because tomorrow is saturday. i could sleep late, forgetting that i actually have to wake up that friday morning. so, since i set up my mind that tomorrow is saturday, i happily slept through the day. to make things worse, i usually silent my phone during the weekends so that nothing will sleep me. furthermore, i'm having my period so i didn't have to wake up for subuh prayers. when i woke up, it is already 9 o'clock. i saw some missed calls from people at work. and only then i realized when looking at the day and date on my phone that today is only friday. i still wouldn't believe it and checked my laptop. huhu, i have a lot to explain at the office later. to cover my dumb mistake today, i promised my boss that i will come to work tomorrow which is the REAL SATURDAY!!!

Eiduladha 1432H..

Greetings my friend. Happy eiduladha to all muslims. I just finished watching people slaughtering cows for qurban. I'm actually hemophobic. Luckily it's just human blood i couldn't stand. Others, i'm fine. So, once again, happy eiduladha..

qurban at my 'kampung'