Unfold

i find this short movie very sweet.. i could relate to some of the scenes shown.. kudo again to jinnyboy tv..

missing you

lately, i've been busy with work that i didn't have enough time to socialize.. by socializing, i mean meeting or communicating with my friends or families via online, phone (calling, messaging, whatsapping etc) or even face to face. normally, i don't answer my phone during work. usually, i will call them back or answer their messages during break or any free time that i could find. so, people who knows me well wouldn't call me during working hours. they will just leave a message.

i am working with immigration department and currently working in the passport unit. so, during this school holiday, our working time has been extended to 10pm everyday, closed only during public holiday. actually, for this type of working hour, we need to use the shift system. two groups, one from 8am - 3pm and the next from 3pm - 10pm. but since we didn't have enough staffs to implement the shift system, we have to work straight to the night. honestly, it's tiring...

ps: to all my loved ones, i'm so sorry if i reply your sms, whatsapp etc a little bit late or completely forgot to reply them.. i'm sorry i haven't return your phone call.. to my mom, sorry i haven't come back to kampung in a while.. to my two gossip girls, sorry for not participating actively in our chats but really looking forward to our vacation together.. and to whom it may concern, really am missing you..

pps: hoping that could find time to watch breaking dawn 2 and rise of the guardians.. anyone? oh btw, the malay movie istanbul aku datang sooooo sweeeeet..

 

me, myself and i

really am grateful to Allah for everything that's given to me

ahlan wa sahlan, ya 1434H

alhamdulillah, it's been another year in the islamic calendar hijrah. islam has its own year calculation there are also twelve months in the year of hijrah and the first month is muharram. years are counted since the Hijrah, which is when the Prophet Muhammad migrated from Makkah to Madinah (approximately July 622 A.D.). if you are interested in learning more about hijrah, just click here. 

here are the prayers that we recite at the end and the beginning of hijrah. first we recite the dua on ending of hijrah a few minutes before maghrib. and after performing maghrib prayer, we recite the dua on early hijrah. i've got the translation from a blog called Towards Enlightment. may Allah Bless us all, insyaAllah...

Translation:

In the name of Allah, the Compassionate, the Merciful, And May the peace and blessing of Allah, be upon Our Master Muhammad (saw) and his family and companions. O Allah, whatever actions I have committed this past year which You have forbidden me from, which I have not repented from, and you have not been pleased with nor do you forget, while You are forbearing with me , though You are fully capable of punishing me, while You called me to repentance after my foolishness before You in committing sins – O Allah, I surely seek Your forgiveness for that, so forgive me ! O Allah, as for my actions that have pleased You in this year and for which reward has been promised, then I ask You O Allah! O Most Generous, O Owner of Majesty and Reverance, that You accept them from me. And do not dash my hopes in You. O Most Generous! And Allah, the Most Exalted, bless our Master Muhammad (saw) and his family and companions and grant them peace.

Translation:

In the name of Allah, the Compassionate, the Merciful And May the peace and blessing of Allah, be upon Our Master Muhammad (saw) and his family and companions. O Allah You are the everlasting, the eternal, the first! And our reliance is upon Your Great Grace and Generosity! And this new year has arrived, we ask Your protection in it from the shaytan and his allies and his armies! And we ask You for Your support against this soul which incites to evil and Your support in pre-occupying ourselves with that which draws us close to You! O Owner of Majesty and Reverance! And Allah, the Most Exalted, bless our Master Muhammad (saw) and his family and companions and grant them peace.

happy diwali 2012

first of all, happy diwali to all that celebrates it! happy holiday as well to most of us. since, tomorrow is a holiday, ms A and i went for a girl night out. actually, i was the one that initiated it. so, we went to sunway pyramid. it's been a while since we were last there. actually, i planned to look at some wigs. as you can see from one of my pictures, i was wearing a wig. so, i wanted to buy one just for fun. but, i bought another silly thing instead.

while searching for the shop with the wig, we found this cute shop called doodolls instead. the salesgirl is wearing this cute hat that can be seen in most anime and manga. ms A was the most excited one! so, as usual we decided to buy one each. we even contacted our partner in crime in kota tinggi, none other than ms awed to choose one. we send her the above picture so that she can decide. finally, ms A chose ninja, i chose fugi and awed chose sunny twin. 

we couldn't wait to get together end of this month to try it on together. but ms A and i had already wear it (as can seen from the above picture) while karaokeing at alamanda. oh, i forgot to mention that end of this month, the three of us will be going to a 3 days trip to cameron highland. we already booked the hotel early of this year.really looking forward to it. everytimes we get together, we would do lots of silly things. sometimes, unthinkable things that women on our age would do. notice that i use the word women and not girls, huhu.. so, that's all for now. until my next entry...

ps: this sunday will be going to buji's wedding at ampang, insyaAllah... buji is our friend from stj.

love message

the picture itself summarizes what i'm writing here. adjust... or don't fall in love... opposite attracts but too much differences repel as well. we have to find the right balance in any kind of relationships. we have to give and take. too much taking or too much giving is bad for you...

recently, i asked my older sister i never thought of asking. i asked her, how long does it took for her and her husband to shift from singlehood to marriagehood. in my eyes, my sister and her husband differs in every way but they managed to find the balance. my sister told me that it differs for every couple. she also mentioned that she asked the same question to my other sister. so i guessed, both of us wondered the same thing before entering the married life.

she said the first year was the toughest period. eventhough they were a couple for about two years before getting married, living together with one another is still a new thing. both had habits that can only be known when living together. because of love, they learned to cope and accept everything about each other. both must be fair and ready to change to achieve the balance

but again, like learning, marriage is along a lifelong journey. we will learn and discover new things. for example, things change when we are blessed with children. oh i forgot to mention, marriage is not just the union of two people but two families as well. for example, i'm the youngest in my family but i may receive younger sisters or brothers through marriage. the same goes for my husband.

people keep asking me, when am i going to get married to the point of my irritation. i know they meant well but still it annoys me, huhu.. like i said, entering into marriagehood is not an easy thing. it's not like what we imagined it during our childhood. remember, when you play masak-masak, kawen-kawen and then you have babies. haha, it was fun right?

but innocent as a child was, we never knew that we would have to encounter hardships, overcome obstacles and facing tough situations to achieve the happy scene we portrayed when we were young. but wait, if i remembered correctly, we still fought when playing pondok-pondok right? see, even as young as we were at that times, we still have our disagreements.

so, i usually answer with the safe answer, most of us the singlaby do, my time haven't arrived yet! i keep answering with the same answer and that made most of them stop asking, huhu... Allah knows what best for us, right? maybe currently, i'm not ready to get married eventhough i think i am! maybe i'm fit to be someone's wife but not fit enough to be a mother.

i'm not gonna lie by saying i'm not affected by it all. i always wonder if i'm gonna die alone, no husband, no children. i imagine being the famous cat lady eventhough i don't have any cat. don't get me wrong, i'm fond of cats but since i'm living with my sis' family, i'm not allowed to have one! in worst scenario, i imagined dying alone and my body would be found only three days later because the neighbour smells something bad (erm, seem likes some movie or drama).

so back to qada and qadar, Allah knows the best for us. Allah will know the right time for me to build a new life with the right person. but still, i know that i have to work hard to achieve it. i am not allowed to stay put and doing nothing about my destiny.

so, i am praying hard that Allah will give me the courage to confess to that one person that i like him. yes, i do have a person whom i like but i get tongue tied around him. honestly, i'm not sure whether he's my soulmate or not. what i know now is i like him for quite sometime. i may have hinted here and there, hoping he'll get my messages. here's another message for him:

dear A,

i don't know if you realize that i like you. i'm not sure if it just like or love since i never been in love before. i confessed that at first i only see you as a friend. we have known each other for more that fifteen years now. during our school day, i saw you like a big brother. but after we each began our working life, i started seeing you in a new perspective.

i'm embarrassed to admit that i became a stalker (hope i won't get charged for this). it's the only way i felt connected to you. if i saw your picture with other girls, i get jealous! yes, i get jealous eventhough we had no relationship (yet).. i'm worried when there's no activity on your social networks; facebook, foursquare etc..

when you either call, sms, whatsapp me, i'm so happy that if i'm alone in my room, i would jump up and down. i'm almost 30 i know, but you manage to make me act like an infatuated teenage girl all over. and maybe if you're reading this, you began think me out of my mind and you are starting to be afraid of me, please don't...

please... oh please if you understand this message, give me a sign. forgive me for stalking you, forgive me for making you feel weird and awkward. i don't want to lose you as a friend. if you don't feel the same way, i understand. i will leave you, i won't disturb you in the psychotic stalker mode anymore. sometimes i think that any girl that can enter your heart and life is the luckiest girl alive.

i'm not perfect but i'm willing to adjust so that i can be with you.. really hope you feel the same way.. again, i truly understand that your feeling might not be the same as mine (the probability is 90%).. when that is the case, please be by my side as my dearest friend..

Love,

E

[SONG] shinhwa ~ how do i say [english subbed]

yup, this is exactly how i am feeling right now, huhu.. btw, this clip was introduced to me by none other than my bff, ms awed 'cos she's also felt the same.. so, we both dedicate this song to whom it may concern.. :)

Presstij Futsal 2012

on 20/10/2012, my secondary school alumni also known as presstij held a futsal tournament for its member, registered or not! the most senior batch that took place is form 5 leavers 1980 and the youngest is form 5 leavers 2009. the match was divided into two categories; senior (age 40 and above) and junior (age 39 and below).

teams' names

i was one of the committee members by accident. the reason is, one of the senior i met during our presstij agm had my phone number and invited me to join the committee. since i've got nothing planned that weekend, i agreed to join. there were nine of us. our first meeting was held on 16/10/2012 at putrajaya lake club. all the matches was also drawn of the same day. in total there are 28 teams; 12 senior and 16 junior.



the committees (abg izam and kak mas are not in the pic)

the committees must arrived at senawang sport complex at 8.00am on the match day. the registration was opened on 8.30am. everything went smoothly. we have two tables for the committees, one on the inside of the building and one on the outside. i was stationed on the outside. the inside table updates the result on the board while the outside table updates the result online. my batch sent one team and called it 99ers. they manage to get  third place! really am proud of them!

99ers

the event ends at about in the evening. our batch celebrated at the nearby McD. the event was a huge success. a lot of people are more interested in joining the futsal event next years. it really helps us bonding with other members. with all the technology this day really make keeping in touch with each other much easier and more convenient compared to before.