my confession

remember when we were young, we sometimes have some imaginary friends to keep us company when we were lonely? or we pretended that our dolls and stuff toys are truly alive, so that we had conversations with them. well, in my adult life, in my current life i still do have imaginary friends and all of the are my imaginary husbands and boyfriends. i don't have to imagine any friends for i have a lot of them in  real life. you'll only imagine things that you couldn't have in real life, right?

as pathetic as it sound, i do prefer married to fictional characters either characters from books, tv shows, movies, comics or manga. the reason? these husbands act due to my imaginations. i control them and by controlling them, i could control the feelings i have. i would never be sad, heartbroken or anything. i couldn't control how people act in real life and even if i could, i wouldn't. it's a little bit cruel to control people in real life for they have the right to think and act how they want.

but controlling fictional characters is a good way to train your brain, hehe.. you had the opportunity to explore the creative side of yourself. your imaginations may not be good enough to be published into books or movies, but still they are yours and you need to think to create them. here are some of my fictional husbands. some of them, you may recognize from my previous entry, love life.

• hajime kindaichi from the manga 'case file of young kindaichi.' of course here, i'm miyuki nanase
• kengo akechi, also from case file of young kindaichi
• shinichi kudo from the manga 'case closed.' here i assumed the role of ran mouri
• hatake kakashi from naruto
• dr reid from criminal minds
• dr sweet from bones
• tony from ncis
• sirius black from 'harry potter' by j.k. rowling
• anthony bridgerton from 'the viscount who loved me' by julia quinn (i'm kate here)
• raine montgomery from 'velvet song' by jude deveraux (i'm alyx)
• marcus, lord westcliff from 'it happened one autumn' by lisa kleypas (i'm lillian)
• joseph, marquess of attingsborough from 'simply perfect' by mary balogh (i'm claudia)
• phillip quinn from 'inner harbour' by nora roberts (i'm sybill)

ps: just got myself heartbroken in real life by a man obviously! so, prefer to stay on the safe side on the emotion road right now by closing back my heart to reality and opening it wide for imaginary..