frustrated

salam,

i'm a little bit dissapointed because i couldn't get my book voucher today. they said the voucher just arrived and didn't sorted it yet. so, i could only get it tomorrow. actually i planned on going back to 'kampung' today but my parents said it will be better if we get back tomorrow. so, i will get my voucher tomorrow! i still went to kinokuniya, voucherless and bought a few books. bought the cheap one, hehe.. after kinokuniya, i went to national library. i think the last time i went there was about 10 years ago. and as i re-register, i'm amazed they still have my details. so, i borrowed a few books and went straight home.

at home, i had some 'bones-marathon!' argh, love the couples in them! booth and bones, angela and hodgins even sweet and daisy! in the episodes i watched, bones and booth are expecting a daughter while angela and hodgins already had a son, michael. if you are a fan of bones, you know what i'm talking about. yesterday, i'm not in a good mood actually. suddenly, i felt that i really want to give up on love entirely. not family love or friendly love or even spiritual love, love to Allah and Rasulullah. it's the love between men and women that i want to give up for! i felt that i'm destined to stay single and marriageless for the rest of my life and i am even prepared to adopt since i love kids! it may sound a litte overboard but that how i felt really!

ps: well, if that really is my destiny, i accept it. if it's written on 'luh-mahfuz', i will be strong and succumb to it. yup, sound like someone who's giving up, rite? i'm not giving up just merely embracing the reality and the truth...